Heeeyyy

How's it going? Long time no blog.


I hate you all.

That is all.

You all suck.

Goodnight.

(Expect the real blog some time tomorrow.)

Yeah...

Alright so here's the quick recap:

Friday: Spent the night at Frank's house. Tried to return Final Fantasy: Crisis Core (additional link). The guy didn't take it. Apparently the seven-day shit only works on used games even if I have a receipt. He said I could return it for $20. I laughed in his face.

Saturday: Went to work. Rained. Depressing thoughts ensued as always. Asked Sarah to swing by on my break, she didn't show (big surprise) she promises to come by for my break the next day but makes me go with her and Brett the next morning for breakfast at Friendly's. Walked home, stopped by Sarah's house to talk for a bit. Not gonna get into how Rosa managed to ditch me today ^_^

Sunday: Woke up, dragged my tired ass to the bank then Friendly's. Had a pretty fun time with Brett and Sarah. Brett's dad drove Sarah home and we went to the skate park. Mahoney let us into the school and we stole sharpies from Mike's locker to tag the skate park (and color my shoes) and some stuffed animals (?). Went to Brett's CCD, made jokes and offended everybody at the table. I got to see Billy, which was cool since I hadn't seen him since the night of Nicole's party. Tried to skip work but my dad was gay and stopped me. Went to work, Sarah didn't show for my break (whoa! didn't see that one coming!) Sarah imed me, trying to explain why she didn't show. Whatever, y'know, sort of used to this kinda stuff by now. Sarah said she might not be in school tomorrow, made her promise me that if she didn't go to school she had to hang out with me and if she did go to school she had to hang out with me.

Today: Went to school. No Sarah. Borrowed Army of Two from Shane, looking forward to playing that. Went to Sarah's house, waiting for about an hour for her to get ready. Had the displeasure of Sam and Jess tagging along. Went to the mall, did nothing. Went to Stop and Shop, did nothing. Went back to the mall, got pissed, left with Kris (he and his brother were kind of thrown into the loop somewhere along the way). Typed this.

Now for the real update;

So for the most part I've come to the part where I want to say "fuck this! I give up!" This is about everything. Friendships, relationships, families, school-the whole shebang. I'm tired and weary from this battle we've affectionately come to call "life."

Anyway...that's it.

News&Sensitivity

So the Root Beer tasting contest went great-A&W won over the rest by two votes. IBC came in second. I'd like to thank Kris (especially since he helped to supply the root beer), Fondi, Dom, and Frank for being my taste testers. I'd like to give Dom a pat on the back and say nice try in that chugging contest against Kris (no offense dude but I knew you didn't stand a chance).

Picked up DMC 3 finally, fun game. The game play isn't all hack&shoot as now there's specific battle styles to level up. My only problem is that Virgil, Dante's brother, has the voice of an obnoxious little rich-boy piece of shit with the hair of an old man (he looked better when it was down like Dante's). So I hope to get some good gaming in on that. Oblivion's been a pretty fun game too, but sadly, looking at the walkthrough book I lose my will to live and know that I do not have near patience enough to finish the game completely.
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Ok, so, it has come to my attention as of late that I am apparently a rather unhappy person (as has been pointed out by three different people in the last two days). Frankly, I am okay with this. I honestly do not mind being unhappy. To be perfectly honest, people who are happy piss me off. No-I correct myself-people who are too happy piss me off. I’m sorry but it’s just not natural to be happy all the time.

So in short: I’m miserable, I’m unhappy, I’m disappointed in myself, I hate myself and the choices I’ve made-but I’m okay with all that for now. I don’t think "god" or whoever put us on this planet to be happy. I think he/she put us here to make us strong, so that we can endure the hardships, and at the end we would be rewarded with happiness (wait, isn’t that karma kind of?).

Anyway, while I don’t know specifically who would/does worry about me, I thank those who do but I would rather none of you worry about me at all. And on top of all of that, NOBODY AT ALL even DARE TRY to pretend you care and/or worry. I swear I’ll never forgive you if you pretend to care and/or worry. I don’t care or worry so you shouldn’t either, it’s that simple. I love you guys (well, most of you) like the family I wish mine could have been.

My only regret in life is that I’ve hurt some of you before and I can’t take that back, just know that I am truly sorry, truly.

Don’t try to reason it, but I would stop myself from meeting every single one of you if I had the chance. I have my own, valid reason for this, don’t try to understand it.

You guys are the greatest thing that’s ever happened to me-no matter what I’ve said in the past.