News&Sensitivity

So the Root Beer tasting contest went great-A&W won over the rest by two votes. IBC came in second. I'd like to thank Kris (especially since he helped to supply the root beer), Fondi, Dom, and Frank for being my taste testers. I'd like to give Dom a pat on the back and say nice try in that chugging contest against Kris (no offense dude but I knew you didn't stand a chance).

Picked up DMC 3 finally, fun game. The game play isn't all hack&shoot as now there's specific battle styles to level up. My only problem is that Virgil, Dante's brother, has the voice of an obnoxious little rich-boy piece of shit with the hair of an old man (he looked better when it was down like Dante's). So I hope to get some good gaming in on that. Oblivion's been a pretty fun game too, but sadly, looking at the walkthrough book I lose my will to live and know that I do not have near patience enough to finish the game completely.
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Ok, so, it has come to my attention as of late that I am apparently a rather unhappy person (as has been pointed out by three different people in the last two days). Frankly, I am okay with this. I honestly do not mind being unhappy. To be perfectly honest, people who are happy piss me off. No-I correct myself-people who are too happy piss me off. I’m sorry but it’s just not natural to be happy all the time.

So in short: I’m miserable, I’m unhappy, I’m disappointed in myself, I hate myself and the choices I’ve made-but I’m okay with all that for now. I don’t think "god" or whoever put us on this planet to be happy. I think he/she put us here to make us strong, so that we can endure the hardships, and at the end we would be rewarded with happiness (wait, isn’t that karma kind of?).

Anyway, while I don’t know specifically who would/does worry about me, I thank those who do but I would rather none of you worry about me at all. And on top of all of that, NOBODY AT ALL even DARE TRY to pretend you care and/or worry. I swear I’ll never forgive you if you pretend to care and/or worry. I don’t care or worry so you shouldn’t either, it’s that simple. I love you guys (well, most of you) like the family I wish mine could have been.

My only regret in life is that I’ve hurt some of you before and I can’t take that back, just know that I am truly sorry, truly.

Don’t try to reason it, but I would stop myself from meeting every single one of you if I had the chance. I have my own, valid reason for this, don’t try to understand it.

You guys are the greatest thing that’s ever happened to me-no matter what I’ve said in the past.