Well lately to say the least I've had the emotions of a girl on PMS, though without the few positive moods she tends to swing into after every ten bad moods. I've gone from sad, to angry, to depressed, to nervous, back to depressed, back to nervous, then a combination of sad and angry.
To say the least I've not had a pleasant week so far. While the first day back at school after vacation was better than I expected, I've come to terms with some depressing facts in my head. I looked further into DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) which is the disease I did for my biology project. The reason I switched from depression (you have quite a choice there but I was referring mostly to the ones further to the top) to DID was because studying depression scared me as I began to feel a bit of a connection to the symptoms. However, a few of DID's symptoms/causes have begun to worry me as well.
"Talking to yourself rather than others about your problems, which can be brought on by a lack of trust in others, or fear of what they'll think of you."
That's not word-for-word but I can't find the site I got that from otherwise I'd link you.
Anyway, I talk to myself a lot as for some reason lately I've found it very difficult to talk to others about my problems since nobody ever seems fully-able to help me. However I've come to terms with the sad truth that I can barely help myself either.
I also owe a review on Full Metal Alchemist: Conquerer or Shamballa, and possibly even a Devil May Cry review, though I already posted a somewhat fair review in my last post. Eh, ya never know. I hope to get someone to review Key to the Key soon so I can see how it's going. Sadly I've lost a lot of motivation to write the story so I've lacked on working on it a lot. I wasn't very satisfied with the latest chapters as I was trying to rush it along without breaking the 5-6 page limit I've set for myself. I managed to get done what I wanted in it however. Sera's in Halloween Town and he's met Jack so I think I did a fairly good job. Though I was already aware of the lack enthusiasm I had put into the chapter, I was even more worried when I saw that the chapter was only 33 KB. Surprisingly enough, the only chapters lower than that are 1&2 which were only 32 each, which really does shock me since I had just started out with fresh ideas for the story you'd think they'd be the largest chaptes. The largest chapters were actually those with what "boss fights". The Guard Armor in Travese Town, the giant Heartless in the Cave of Wonders, Jafar, Axel, and Sephiroth. This is probably due to the focus I tend to put on fights and action sequences.
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